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I think I have a problem...??


Question: I have this thing where I guess subconciously I don't trust anyone. I have never had a true close friend, I never would tell them the truth about myself, I lied a lot. I have noticed a pattern of me pushing people away...I <3 my boyfriend very much, and we're engaged, but recently, I've been shutting him out without meaning to do so. He said I seem distracted.
I also have issues with my parents. I have, on a number of occasions just felt trapped...like trapped in this place in my life, and trapped in myself. I have medical issues too.
I have seriously considered suicide a couple of times...

I am really worried about myself, and I love my boyfriend, and I don't want to shut him out, I don't want to lose him, but I'm doing it...and I can't help it. Can someone please give me advice...anything? A website or something...I can't see a therapist, I would have to tell my parents and...well, bluh.
Please help me I am really worried.
Answers: It sounds like chronic depression. As a fellow sufferer, I can tell you that there are many medications that really work. If your parents do find out about this, I'm sure they'd be supportive. You must see your doctor. You have to tell him everything you wrote in your question. That'll help him know which med you need. Just think, in a couple weeks, everything will make sense. Your days will be bright and happy again so you won't just be going through the motions. And, btw, suicide is not an option. It would ruin the lives of everyone who loves you forever. Everyone would feel guilty. And I don't care what religion you are. It's a sin. Even if you're not religious, that's pretty scary! So get to a doctor ASAP. The sooner you go. the happier you'll be. I know what I'm talking about. You'll be in my prayers tonight. :)
Do some reaserch on how you feel go to the laibrary and read books about the subjects you are struggling with
Find your inner child. self analysis do help you know yourself better than any therapist.
That IS really tough - and hard for me to answer well, the way you want, because really it's a therapist you need. It's just too difficult to see the whole thing yourself. Are you in a situation where you can find any free therapy (I'm assuming the need to tell your parents is because of money)? Either group or individual therapy would help a lot, but the issues you're describing of needing to hide your real self by lying or pushing people away do need someone with skills and experience.

If that really is totally utterly impossible, you might try reading The Search for the Real Self by James Masterson, and/or Healing the Shame that Binds You by John Bradshaw.
No one should have deal with what your dealing with alone, it does sound like you have depression though, you really should go to a therapist. If you can not though, check the site below.


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